haOkay let me start off by posting some hot stuff! :) :) :)







HOT RIGHT OMG HAHAHAHA I am srsly far too lazy to post somemore cos there are plenty of photos that are way better than these but I'm just too lazy to upload. Damn hot damn hot damn hotttttttttttttttt


Putting that aside, I packed my cupboard today! :} Yayzers I'm not usually the kind that will repack stuff but I always cannot find my clothes nowadays plus I have like 3 stacks all around my room so to save time and waste my day, I decided to arrange them neatly. Hee hee. But I reckon it'll be messy once I start to like decide what to wear.. And as always I have the 'What were you thinking when you bought this?!' section of clothes that I am about to well, throw or donate away. Hahaha like ONE WHOLE STACK.

Yay tmr lunch at Ikea but then got friendly against Zenith zzz

I liked club training last Friday cos we got to swim and it was smthg different. Though um she combined fitness and conditioning tgt for the first hour and I almost died cos my stamina really doesn't exist anymore but swimming was really fun. We shld have another swimming session then can play Cel's water cherades haha.

I need to go and run or do whatever that will increase my stamina. I have been doing whatever it takes to bring it down when now I need it the most!! Zomg I feel so breathless after running for like, less than 6 mins?! And um not say I run like 2k in 6 mins I think its like less than 1k?! Even I feel so embarrassed myself. Zzz like some fat ball of lard.

Okay I can't think of what else I wanted to say..... I just know that I'm like fucking hungry now, my stupid stomach is going crazy as usual. Past few days barely eat then now I feel like eating a whole cow. Maybe I'm too used to supper that's why I'm like super hungry. Shall go cook some noodles after this.

Hmmmz. I'm still thinking about what I wanted to say. Oh its my sissy's bday today :)

Sigh forget it. I can't think already. I blame the flexibility of my internal organs. HAHA noodles here I come!

This is stupefying, really.

You have no _ idea how it is, srsly.

Just look at how Awesome these little babies are?!?!?! OMG I can't wait to get one of my own and decorate them up like this! A mini cooper convertible with like custom made wraps :) :) :) It will be like the best looking car around. Hahahaha omgzxzxzxzxz

Friendly in the evening against Zenith just now. I wanted to die playing 2 consec quarters of C cos obviously my stamina sucks now. I think I will make a better WD given my stamina hahaha don't need to run so much. I wld say today's training is the toughest so far cos I pespired a fair bit. Lol Polite coming soon zzz

I think results are coming out tmr at 8am even more zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

I am damn stressed over some shit ugh I hate this. Sucks I don't know what else to say but I just hate it a lot!!!

My thoughts are damn random now I cannot take it. All I know is I have already changed my mind about it. You don't need to do this anymore.

I thought that the Time Traveller's Wife was fantastic :} I loved it so much cos its so sweet and sad. I am going to read the book! Hahaha and I hope I will finish reading it. So sad omg the show, especially the ending. I think the book will be so much better :}

& damn funny I was watching WLISA and the worst 3 wishes the genie can grant you: 'Can I have two bags of chips and a bottle of coke please?' Hahahahaha they really damn hilarious unless the show is all made up, never knew people could be so witty. Smthg I wld like to be too. Lol.

Lights is an awesome band \m/

It's 3:28am and my dad suddenly came home -_- Rather weird. Hah okay he's gona scold me again zzzzzzzzz byebyebye.

I used to put on a pair of black shoes happily. I would be so proud if it, showing people that even the ugliest pair that everyone will still detest now will look good (or at least decent) on me. But now, I will think twice about taking it out for a stroll because this pair has been pricking me much. It brings me to places which I want to go no more. So now I am still deciding on getting an exact same pair, or a pair of whites instead. I don't want whites, I don't like whites. But another replica would not solve my problem...

FUCK I THINK I GOT SORE EYES ITS KILLING ME....

I KEEP RUBBING MY EYES IT GETS ITCHIER AND ITCHIER WTF NOOOOO THE LAST TIME I HAD SORE EYES MY WHOLE EYE WAS LIKE ABOUT TO FALL OUT. ZZZZ CB DAMN ITCHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi, I know what to do already and I feel a lot better now :) Must be all the happy songs thanks a lot. I will divert all my anger into a way somewhat more calm and loving, since everyone has been commenting on the sudden abusive language that I've been using. I must have been a fool, I hope I keep thinking this way. Then everyth will be all right :)

I hope all this is NOT easier said than done.

My crazy diet is coming back again. Zzzz haven't been eating for two days straight. The only food I ate was ice cream with Shern ytd at Great World -_- I hate to be this way cos then all the gastric and zzz problems will come back again. I can't even force myself to eat this is damn badddddd

I hope the tanning plan will work tmr hahaha can't wait to soak up the uv rays and sweat it off.

Need to leave in 3 mins time and I'm still here. So gona get screwed but I don't care. Haha still need to change and pack my bag.

Fuck training later zzzzz no motivation to train at alllllll omg omg omg


In the end, its back to number one, or worse still, zero. But I know what to do.

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

'Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everythings okay
And finally now, we're leaving

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one

Two is better than one


What a song I adore their new album ttm ^^ Go is another lovely song thanks for the intro hahahah now I keep hearing the song over and over and over.....


I want to be a selfish, self centered person with all these characteristics so distinct that people despise me for being so over myself when I'm not even great to begin with. I want to ruin people's lives I want myself to be the happiest at all times. I want everyone to hate me.

And I shall be on my way there now.

Another sleepless night. I felt like a total loser. Loser with a capital L, or anyth to make 'loser' an understatement. I totally hate this. I received a message in the morning which I was supposed to be most happy about because it finally came in but my feelings were just.. Numbed. I couldn't feel much, ever since lnwishdwhiflfcidekhtdtfawyrmtdwyiflfca.

Yeah, everyone was right. I am a loser.

I've had an AWESOME Birthday thanks to all my friends :} :} :}

It was really great seeing everyone gathered together and having fun. I appreciate each and everyone who came down for the dinners and even for the well wishes. Who say friends don't offer you the greatest company I'd say I have the best bunch of friends that anyone could ask for ♥



I lazy to upload more HAHHAHA cos there's a lot of photos and I don't exactly have time now cos I'll have to think of what to wear, change, look decent and leave my hse in half an hour's time. It may sound like the time given is reasonable but trust me it is a difficult challenge that I find that I have to accomplish everytime. Hahahaha which I fail most of the time so I will try to upload more photos soon!



OMG when I was rushing I banged my forehead against the ladder of my double decker bed and now I have a red swollen bump on my head?!?!?!?!?! WTF WTF WTF its mother obvious I think even my whole bottle of concealer cannot cover it!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG damn pain the shock lasted for like, 10 minutes and its still damn painful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I am leaving soon. GREAT JOB THERE I AM SUCH A JOKE.

Bottle pop.

Ripped this off somewhere.

What is the difference between you and me
I'll tell you now
Well, I'm tall
& you're short
I hardly have piercings
You simply adore having them
I'm fat enough for people to revolt
You're the hot one
I'm fair
You're tan
People hate me
The girls love you

The person must be head over heels over this whoever that is perfect to her. Can feel her emotions all..


Okayzz enough of the depressing stuff. I think my life has been rather depressing so far. Why oh why oh whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy I want to know whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Hahahahahaha I wish I could drag my words and not fall out of tune now. My sorethroat is hurting everytime I swallow food/water etc. And I'm srsly serious about something. I am so going to lose weight.. It's not about the whole image thing its more for being health conscious I feel. I am like five and one number lesser than that omg I need to bring it down to zero. Zero zero zero. I will do it!! Actually I can be on the way cos I only ate air water and probably some chocolate today hahahahha \m/

Today when I woke up I had 13 msges -_- I thought what happened and not say I woke up very late (like 12 plus) I thought some major crisis happened. Zzz in the end nothing much and nothing made me happy also. CHEY. Esp when I thought it was going to be smthg good, but doesn't look like it at all. Bummer.

I wonder how long I can last this mental game. C'mon jz, go go go.

HUGS
A form of physical intimacy that usually involves the holding of arms around the person, showing common human signs of love and affection. They are considered as a romantic exchange, or a sign of support and comfort. Hugs increases levels of Oxytocin, which will in turn reduce blood pressure.

Aw, so your blood pressure is always on the low side right? ^^ (wahlao this person mother thickskin hahahahah)

But I still think hugs are an awesome gift to make someone's day. Everyone has their own way and I only like one way so far..


Why does silence break the heart?

Cannot be anymore suay during the past week.



1. I missed my bus stop 3 times in 3 consec days because I keep dozing off and stubbornly refuse to wake up then in the end I have to walk all the way back home cos the last bus's gone. Zzz

2. I don't understand why I keep dropping my food everywhere. Last Friday was the bomb. During lunch at the market, I bought 3 tapioca cakes and one dropped onto the table. Then I ate chicken rice and my whole plate of rice smashed onto the floor. Then we ate logan dessert and my logans fell into the chicken rice soup -_-


I get misunderstood for nothing I don't understand why. She keeps thinking otherwise when I tell her that its the exact opposite -_- -_- I don't know what to say anymore if you keep insisting so. Why are you only doing this now huh huh. Makes me doubt everyth you did before.

And I don't know what to say about that. I can't even type out more than two sentences regarding the issue.


Anw, I just came back from the Changi Prison run and my knees hurt like fuck. Like during the 4th k my right ankle damn pain, then followed by my knees. Zzz I think they spoil already. I think I cannot run long distance at all. I missed my timing by like 5 minutes also zzzzz

Barely slept last night for like 3 hours only. The place was filled ttm damn funny when the instructors were leading the warm up, like the english good ttm. 'Let's do the bicep CUR', 'Cmon air your ARM', WTF hahahha seriously.


For once, I HATE THE HOLIDAYS.

Looked out my window tonight into the cloud hidden sky and I, I proclaimed it to be mine. Then I knew I'm bringing home, bring home to you, they all say that I'm crazy to get up and leave just like that but I told them its just 4,000 miles and I was willing to do that. I, I'm bringing home to you, cause your the only for me and maybe you I, I'm changing skies for you but you'll never know how much I've missed you. Packed all my bags and I never been more sure of anything in my life. Put my heart in a suitcase, left my tears at the door. No more crying for me anymore cause you know, I know its hard to part thats why I'm breaking these chains of a lonely heart. I, I'm bringing home to you, cause your the only for me and maybe you I, I'm changing skies for you but you'll never know how much I've missed you. Now this journey takes us on incredible careless tasks together, trading in the loss we shared for might come true forever and ever and ever and EVER. I'm, I'm bringing home to you cause your the only for me and maybe you I I'm changing skies for you but you'll never know how much I've missed you.

I love Automatic loveletter and Between the trees :) Their songs are like awesome possumz ttm \m/ I can spend the whole night listening to both their albums over and over.

Last day of attachment tmr :) I will miss all the patients cos they are really damn cute. Their naviety makes me enjoy spending time with them and everytime I see them improve on their walking ability I feel so happy for them. Haha but today was so slack I cld sleep standing up. Srsly I'd rather they give me things to do then just stand and rot... I'm still looking forward to the last day nontheless. Yayzersssss

Then I met J and we never go training hahahaha we went Ion to walk and eat, to stone and bum around. Lol stupid asshole got no attachment then still can tell me everyday she wake up at 4:51pm -_- Must emphasise on the 1, cannot round off all. Since when you so accurate. Hahahah.
Then tmr meeting S to watch moooo-veeee. Like third time going to town in three days zzz

I can understand if your friend was trying to help you to speak up, that's what true friends are for. I understand, but it doesn't necessarily mean I shld listen to whatever nonsense zzz that you say about her. So as long as we put that aside, all's good :)

Now, I can foresee my holidays being spent at home ALONE doing nothing, maybe catching up on my anti-social life and work on being mia for the next five weeks. I think I might just succeed.

Time is passing so fast..........

I hate the way she dresses, I hate the way she tries to stand out from a picture, I hate the way she handles her problems, I hate the way she blogs, I hate the way she smiles, I hate the way she's making me suffer like that. I hate hate HATE everyth about her. But all the more I hate myself for blaming someone else for this.

And then another one pops out from nowhere. That S, trying to seduce her all. And then she happily just fall into it. What 'you belong with me' zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Maybe sometimes ignorance is really a bliss. I really don't know how to put all these thoughts tgt. Don't know how to translate it into actions or even actually meaning it. I just can't tell my mind not to think about it. As much as I spill it out, I don't see it going anywhere. I don't care whether this is private or not, I don't exactly care who sees this because if it doesn't even concern them, then I don't see why they will ever get involved in it. Not like anyone knows what this is all about. Not even the person whom I'm talking about. Not like anyone will understand this. Not like my feeling matters, not like she cares about it in the first place. Not like my opinion will change her mind, not like we haven't gone through this before. Seriously.

So why shld I even give myself all the trouble of going through this 'misery'? So what if I am selfish and only care about how I feel? I really don't see the point. I see that you have learnt my tactic, using it against me to show me about your 'misery' when I used it against you. Thank you for doing so, you have just officially given me insomnia for the night. I love you so much more now.

I am enjoying clinicals so far though we don't have much to do but all the patients are like damn cute. Hahaha learnt quite a bit today. I kind of like their working environment cos its quite relaxed and not exactly in a formal setting. Plus they wear the white coat look like doctor, and I got Hot Angmoh to look at HAHAHA. I am starting to think I cld get used to this :)

Training today omg we did sprinting my legs are aching... Met J last evening we had impromtu dinner at somewhere in amk cos she came to find me and we didn't know where to dine at. Then as usual she always say smthg retarded hahaha really damn funny. Long time since we ever hung out.

It's 12:25am and I need to effing wake up at 630am tmr omfg.... Like mother early I feel like killing myself. I need to get some sleep soon, after I finish doing smthg.


Loner with a MIA lifestyle.